Thursday, March 21, 2013

crisis averted

Remember how I was having a midlife crisis???
I'm all better!!
Apparently all I needed was a little TLC and sunshine.
We went to Zions with our good friends and had more fun than we have had in a very long time. We spent most of  our time outside in the sun. We hiked and hiked some more. We plade arcade games and went bowling. We even hit some balls at a golf range. The best part of it all is that we didn't have a plan at all. We woke up every morning and did whatever we felt like doing.
Our favorite part was the Angel's Landing hike. People told us it was pretty scetchy and the most of the way we didn't get it. Suddenly we understood haha. The last .5Mile is more of rock climbing. It was super high up and most of it you could look off a cliff on either side of where you were standing.
We were so happy to know that this was our last vacation without a child. We lived up our alone time, but we actually can't wait to go on vacations with our little man.
The thing about my midlif crisis is that it was mostly about change... just like anyone else I'm terrified of the unknown. It scares me to know that I will be in charge of a person. I can completely influence him, good and bad. Will I do a good job??
But, I want one thing to be clear. I want this change. I have ached for this change for over three years. It has consumed my life.

11 weeks everyone!!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

my midlife crisis

Pretty sure I recently went through a midlife crisis.... just saying.

I don't know if it is just knowing that my whole life is totally changing (in the best possible way) in three months or if it is just because winter is lasting far too long and I have cabin fever. Not sure, but it happened.

I found myself wanting to do random crazy/irresponsible things.
~spend lots of money, do something dangerous... never could think of anything that would fit this description, go cliff diving, stay up late every night, drive really fast, etc.

Just a lot of really random dumb things. Did I do any of them... not really. I just felt this itch to do something. We are going on a cheap little spring break trip to Zions and I think it will do. We are going to go running and hiking and swimming and just sit in the warm outside!!

Did any of you mom's out there have a midlife crisis right before your little one came? Or am I just a crazy person.

I think it may be that for such a long time we have devoted so much of our time and thoughts to getting our family started and now that it is so close I feel like I deserve a little me time before real adulthood begins. I promise I'm a responsible person!!

P.S. I'm totally in love with the name that we have picked out!!

P.S.S We got to hang out with J and her Mom last week and we will never stop thinking about how grateful we are to have been picked by her. We couldn't have asked for a more chill Birthmom/Birthfamily!