Our Birthmom J

(Written Jan 27th) We met our Birthmom on Saturday (Jan 26). Were we terrified... yes. The night before Kyle had to work and I was home alone to think about every little thing that could go wrong. Was it going to be awkward, what  if she hates us, etc. etc. On the drive down I was shaking and Kyle kept repeating how nervous he was. We really had no idea how this was going to go because she said in her email that she was considering placing. So we didn't even know if she had made a decision to place yet. Finally we got to breakfast were we met J, her daughter M and her caseworker. Her caseworker is so sweet and helped us start the conversation, we are so grateful that she came with. We small talked for a while and then J and her caseworker told us why J liked us. Apparently I didn't pick up that they were saying that J had chosen us to be the parents, until the caseworker said "I told J that she should look into other families, but she didn't want to. She knows you guys are it." We kept talking and then suddenly breakfast was over. So we got in our cars and left. We were thinking wow that was quick and we knew she had chosen us, but she hadn't said it directly yet. As we were driving away we got a call from them asking us to meet at J's apartment to talk more. We are so glad that we did because talking more really cleared things up. We really got to know J and felt so comfortable with her. She is someone that any adoptive parent would be lucky to have an open adoption with. She is funny, down to earth, and supportive of how we want to parent. She has been through a lot in her life and we think she is so strong! She is just wonderful! We also got to play a little bit more with M, possibly the cutest little girl on this earth! While we were at her apartment I couldn't help but straight up ask her... "So you have chosen us for sure??" She said yes, she said there is something about us that she just loves and especially after talking we just match. What a relief! She had actually chosen us before we even met, meeting just sealed the deal.
We talked more than two hours like we all were good friends. We actually have a lot in common.
We feel very good about this adoption and we can't believe that we are so lucky to have found a Birthmother so fast! Those pass along cards worked!! We know that Heavenly Father has had a hand in our process and we are so excited for little baby Ewert that is coming our way!!